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jhoanneh
Tidbits
Joan Ponsica
22 years old
Santa Isabel College


sweet talks
scrapbooking!br> writing & blogging
reading books of danny brown and bob ong
browsing the net
writing stuff and this
playing scrabble...hehehe
take a nap
chatting with friends
go out with sandy
eating

Dar Links

chic and pretty
friendster
delicious ambiguity


Sincere Thanks

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Brushes:DayDreamed



Memories
April 2005
 October 2005
 November 2005
 December 2005
 January 2006
 February 2006
 May 2006
 June 2006
 July 2006
 August 2006
 September 2006

Loathes

when im craving for sweets and cant find one
irritated with sandy
riding the PUJ
irate clients
dumb-founded
traffic in EDSA
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Playing Now

my favourite songs


life with dreams: Sunday, April 24, 2005

Just now Im with Sandy, still enjoying our limited times together. He arrived so late this afternoon but its okay with me as long as he made it. I dont know what is wrong with me but I really feel so sad this afternoon and he even noticed the sadness in me. Just the other day while we are talking, I told him that I have a weird feeling that I’m going to die soon, he just give me a keen look and told me not to mention such topic again especially when we are together.

So then, this afternoon this bizarre feeling really envelops me, Im not even in the mood to talk to him, I merely laugh to his corny jokes and I think Im going to cry. He often asks me if I am alright and what is wrong with me. He even asks me what is bothering me. I just told him nothing and that Im very fine.

But deep inside me, my heart is crying in pain. I have now realized why I felt that way, why I thought Im going to die soon. It is the thought of not being with him is killing me and it was too hurting. I want to open this up to him but I just cant.

As I lay down in bed, with him at my side, telling me how much he loves me makes me sobbed in silence. It was so painful. While he is asleep, I cant help it but cry because deep within me I know that those beautiful days with him will going to end soon. I love him so much to the point that Id rather die than live life in the absence of his love.


my dreams 11:38 PM